Pay Up

Heartbroken in a landslide. No, after a few days of feeling pretty shitty, I'm resigned looking forward to another month of at home IUI with my potholder and sunglasses wearing love.

After this month we'll make an appointment with a specialist of some kind and probably continue trying for a couple months more while we wait for the appointment date. I just think it's odd that in the months we try I start spotting so early and the months we don't I don't.

I wonder if something is wrong. If I wasn't so worried that we were throwing good money after bad, I think I'd feel a lot better about it.

Nothing cute to say today. We heard a volley of gunshots as we were falling asleep last night and learned this morning someone had been shot a block from our house. Celebrated MLK's birthday in church and just felt so fucking sad about the state of things.