Monday, January 24, 2005

Hey, Do Something Before Something Gets Done to You

HRC | Amendment Reintroduction Demonstrates Allard and Allies Are Out-of-Touch with American Public

Monday, January 17, 2005

One of the great misfortunes of history is that all too many individuals and institutions find themselves in a great period of change and yet fail to achieve the new attitudes and outlooks that the new situation demands. There is nothing more tragic than to sleep through a revolution. And there can be no gainsaying of the fact that a social revolution is taking place in our world today. -Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.; The Ware Lecture; 1966.

Learned at Moxie's site that the Lutheran Church has decided not to decide. Oh, that they would have an iota of the bravery their name should give them. A heartbreaking day. One always hopes that their parent will love them unconditionally and my spiritual parent does not. I'm grown up, I have options. My heart aches for the kids stuck in these places who feel that God doesn't love them and that their souls are dirty because of the way they're wired. I can't help but feel that these people of God must know they've made the most cowardly choice of all. That makes it even worse.

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Pay Up

Heartbroken in a landslide. No, after a few days of feeling pretty shitty, I'm resigned looking forward to another month of at home IUI with my potholder and sunglasses wearing love.

After this month we'll make an appointment with a specialist of some kind and probably continue trying for a couple months more while we wait for the appointment date. I just think it's odd that in the months we try I start spotting so early and the months we don't I don't.

I wonder if something is wrong. If I wasn't so worried that we were throwing good money after bad, I think I'd feel a lot better about it.

Nothing cute to say today. We heard a volley of gunshots as we were falling asleep last night and learned this morning someone had been shot a block from our house. Celebrated MLK's birthday in church and just felt so fucking sad about the state of things.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

Do the Right Thing

Thank God this is two days before my birthday. Because I intend to spend, spend, spend for my weekend. I suggest sending any money you save to tsunami relief efforts or your local public radio or the homeless guy on the street or whatever would make you feel great...

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

Hopeful Vs. Heartbroken

One week post-insemination. Pain in my right side all day. Very little spotting this evening. Way too early to be my period. Just like last time we inseminated. And it didn't work.

In a few days a winner will be declared. I'm betting money on Heartbroken.

Monday, January 10, 2005

Every Flavored Bean

I know that the two week wait is truly symptom-free. So, I make all kinds of vows that I will not get nutty during the post-insemination, not yet time to test phase. Then I totally get nutty. This morning I looked at the Q-tip ™ after cleaning my ears and wondered if more earwax than usual is a sign of pregnancy. Whaddya think?

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Making a molehill out of a Mountain Man

Well, the planets aligned, all my parts worked as designed, and we were able to perform two home ICI/IUI inseminations. Since there was no roadmap (and for all the money we spend, you'd think they'd provide one), we aren't entirely sure if we made it all the way through the cervix into my uterus or not.

Now, we wait. And wait. And hope. And knit. And long. And yearn. Oh, the endless yearning.